ate tinay..im gonna miss you so bad..

Still at work earlier when i received a message from ate tinay informing me she’s getting married tomorrow November18, 2008..though i know it before but still i got shocked!

I dont know what to feel… some part of me are really happy for her coz finally at the age of 40 she’s getting married and i know that’s what she want, to be with the person she truly love..but other part of me is so sad i don’t know why? maybe its just that i was too close to her that im afraid ill be losing her..not really losing her but for sure i wont be able to be with her anymore the way we were before..

before we were 4 but now its just me and sep left..well, that’s life….im happy for her coz i know its her dream ever since to get married and have her own family..

 Ate tinay,

 I know you know i do love you from the start up to now..now your getting married nothing will change…you’ll still me my super duper love kong friend.. though part of me really gonna miss you…thought times were together…everytime na tutupad tayo, gigimik na kahit walang pera, makikipagkita sa mga boys naten hehehe, mga naughty talks naten, ang pagpaalam mo ko palagi sa bahay para lang makagala ako, icomfort mo ko everytime na im down or you, sumamba together at magiyakan, mag out of town for the first time  sa baguio na makatabi ka matulog, lahat lahat….sobrang mamimiss kita grabeng miss..masya ko sayo alam mo yan walang magbabago sana ganon ka rin saken…kung sakali mang ikakasal ako wag kang mawawala ha…mahal kita ate tinay sobra…best wishes…and congratulations…

CESS *-* 

confused?!

if i were on his shoes…

9:30 am dinala ko nanaman si lola sa hospital kase nga follow up check up we wait for like 2 hours and half before sya naasikaso kase ngarag pa mga tao sa hospital…lahat na ginawa inultrasound si lola urinalysis etc etc…were just waiting for the result and kay doc around 8 pm na ata bumalik si doc sa hospital from perpetual because of his mom..then he talked to me seriously he told me that on the the left kidney of lola is already small, the right kidney is still working but there’s a cyst and the infection cause too much already which affects her a lot…the moment i knew it was like i was stuck for minute which i dont know what to react but doc said it would be fine (Hope so)…tapos un lumapit si doc kay lola while im the other side of lola he keep asking lola how old she is? wheres lolo? the he said “buti pa kayo malakas pa mother ko 80 years old na inoperahan namen sa heart, kase may tubig ung heartnya, muntik na nga matigok e” and after that he turn back and grab his hankerchief and he said layo nga ko sa inyo baka mahawa kayo ng sipon ko..after that i told him “doc pasensya na po kayo ang dami namen nandito pero aalis na rin po sila mamaya” then he replied “anong pasensya? walang dapat ihingi ng pasensya buti nga kyo marame ako magisa lang”i really feel sad that time..kahit umuwi na ko naiisip ko pa rin ung mga nangyare..iniisip ko pano kung ako nasa lagay nya pano kung 1 araw kunin na talaga si lola un nga lang maswerte lang ako at marami kame magkakapamilya..hindi ko alam kung matatakot ako o ano pero simula nun sobrang napagisip na ayoko dumating ung mga araw na un dahil kayanin ko man pero mahirap…

Caregiver??? Hell no !!! hahaha….

Grabe di ko kinaya un..kakatapos ko lang maglinis kay lola kase nagpoop sya di ko naman matiis kase wawa naman magisa lang nagtatanggal nung diapers nya kase nga naiinis sa kanya si mama kase inaaway nya si ermat, so nagvolunteer na lang ako na ako maglinis..grabe kulang na lang pumikit ako dahil nanghihina ako talaga promise!!hahaha..at pagtapos non narealize ko buti na lang tourism graduate at hindi nursing… kase pag nagkataon lahat ng pasyente ko iniwan ko dahil di ko kaya hahahaha…i know one day darating rin ung part na sa family ko talaga un mangyare un nga lang sana magkalakas na ko ng loob magasikaso ng ganon by that time..grabe saludo ako sa mga caregiver, nurse ba yan o ano pa..dahil nakakaya nila ung mga bagay na yon na hindi ko kaya huhuhu..cguro un na ung isa sa mga bagay na di ko kaya as in mahihirapan akong gawin, magawa ko man manghihina ako panigurado hehehehe…

everything can happen!

my life is moving slowly right now and i know its time for me to mesmerize all the things ive done in the past…i know its not gonna be that simple but i have too…now i realize that not everything is in your side..everything can happen in a second and in that second i wasn’t prepared…

August 4 monday…im already prepared for my interview but it turn out not so good..there’s some problem with my documents which until now im still wondering how or why is thing happen? ive been emailing back those person whose involved but later on they left me behind…i got so disappointed.  I quit my job as a travel coordinator knowing that im going back to the US this year but unfortunately im not going anymore.(though im really planning to quit my job hahaha).i know i disappoint lots of people but they know i did my best but the problem was not in me..

Now i’ll start everything from the scratch ill try to look for a job again or anything i can have while im still here in manila. but now all i can is SEE YOU SOON niagara falls, new york, florida, la, san diego, sanfrancisco, alaska, philadelphia,michigan, washington and lots more.. hahaha.. crazy!! lol..

Jenny & Juno

 The story is all about a 15 year old couple called "Jenny and Juno".

 The story started jenny found out that she’s pregnant. She went to the school and told Juno about having their baby, at first juno was so shocked about what he heard its been days that juno was hiding to jenny because his still undecided on what to do. Until Jenny talk to him personally and dare juno arm wrestling. if jenny won he would do what ever jenny decided, and if juno win he can do what ever he want, But jenny won and from that day on they decided that will keep the baby. from that day on Juno start working in the morning by delivering the newspaper, his always been so sweet to jenny, giving jenny all she wants like food or what to do. one day jenny decided she wants sour food so juno bring him to rice noodle’s which his tutored work, jenny got jealous as she remembers that juno first kiss was juno’s tutored. They been hiding Jenny pregnancy as they can. but jenny’s sister found out that she’s pregnant and ask her sister that she will be the one to tell the truth to their mom. the next day juno went to jenny’s house to tell that jenny’s pregnant then they decided to go the hospital for the check up. juno went home and tell to her mom that her friend jenny is pregnant and they want to keep the baby, her mom got surprise and also upset about what she heard.  

 Jenny and Juno’s parents decided to keep the baby but they will be get married once they reach 25 and then the baby would be take good care by Jenny’solder sister. but two of them decided that they will keep the baby while studying. teacher and Classmate of Juno and Jenny give them a surprise wedding they get all together at the gym and they were inside the side wearing the ring as the sign of their love. But one day juno found out that they cannot reach Jenny’s until he talk to jenny’s sister and found out that Jenny’s is at the mansion. he urgently went to the mansion but while on the cab he say Jenny and he ran into her and told the cab driver that there’s a kidnapper on the black car with abudent lady and so the cab driver as for the help and cornered the car juno hug jenny but jenny’s having birth and send her into the hospital and then a cute baby was born and end up the story by accepting what happen to their relationship by all the people around them.

Jenny and Juno are certainly wayward children who should have never done a thing they did for their age. But it was an accident that they made the mistake and their love is in a way innocent. What should be really criticized is not the couple but adults who only say ‘no.’ This film shows how they make a mistake but how we should take responsibility

This was the Director’s reaction about the criticism of the critics of the movie..Such a good movie and for the teenagers to be aware of the whats happening to their surroundings and as early as now their be knowledgable about things they will go through so that their prepared already.

Windstruck

 This past few weeks my cousin joan keeping telling me that i should watch WINDSTRUCK, and finally last nigh we were able to watch it…and the story start this way..

One day there was a lady chasing the purse snatcher and keep on shouting for help. JunJi Hyun play as (Kyung-jin Yeo) a female police officer heard the lady shouting and get her shoe and drop to the purse snatcher but unfortunately she wasnt able to hit the guy, and the she ran into him the moment she catch the guy Jang hyuk play as (Myung-woo Ko) keeping explaining to her that the was not the purse snatcher and she bought the guy into the police station and finally she realize that Myung woo was not the one..

Kyung jin was  able to be close with Myung woo. one day they were walking on the streets and kyung jin saw highschool students at the red street of korean. she told the higschool students to go home since its late but they never listen to her and kyung jin got pissed and throw a can to one of the students, the students drop his cigarette and kyung jin keep telling the guy to pick it up but never listen, they dare to challenge kyung jin into a fight but in the end they never win. Kyung-jin is then given the job of escorting Myung-woo through a dangerous district, only to be distracted when she tries to break up a meeting between Russian Mafia and Korean gangsters. With Myung-woo handcuffed to her, Kyung-jin almost single-handedly brings down the two rival gangs (although she is helped when she accidentally causes the groups to start shooting at each other). when they got back to the police station and asking for the key for their hand cuffs the station officer told them that the higschool student she fought with is a son of the city council of korea and any moment the father will be in the police station, and in that moment that father of hs student came and keeping slapping kyung jin for hitting his son, Myung woo cant stand seeing that guy slapping kyung jin so he did is shout and get kyung jin gun pointing to the guy and telling that his a murderer,rapist and a drug dealer, that he will kill all of them if he didnt stop slapping and saying bad words to Kyung jin. he told the guy and his bodyguard to down on their knees and repeat what Myung woo says "Im sorry officer", "I will never back here again to hurt you" ‘ i will teach my son a good manner" and myung woo shout that in the count of three they should be out of the office or else their all dead.

And starts from that day they become more closer to each other. Myung woo is a teacher at the girls school, one day kyung jin went to Myung woo’s work and give him a lunch box and telling the whole class that Myung woo is her boyfriend without Myung woo knowing and that they slept together. the next day they started dating, kyungjin bought a book for myung woo a book which myung woo bought kyung jin also when the exchange myungwoo draw a cute drawings on the upper left of the page and when she open it it would be a moving drawing. Myung woo and Kyung jin went to the market and bought some thing for kyung jins house. since kyung jin’s house is on the top of the building, it was a hard time for myung woo bringing up those heavy things they bought. while kyung jin is cooking myung woo was making a paper plane which he get it into the magazine and point it to kyung jin. kyung jin was planning the piano but never using the black keys which myung woo wonders why? kyung jin explains to her about her childhood days that she have a twin sister, her twin sister is very naughty that why the exchange places everytime they need it kyung jin sister was the one taking her piano lessons and she’s the one doing the examination for her twins since they look the same. one day kyung jin have a examiination to her piano lesson she called her sister to do it for her but unfortunately on the way to the piano school her twin sister was hit by a car, her twin sister dreamed to be a police officer which she did and from that day on she never played the black keys which her sister always played. kyung jin asked myung woo what about her childhood days myungwoo said his very happy with his life and just being a happy go lucky and the only thing he remember is the photo with his friends while eating noodles.

 Kyung jin went to myung woo’s work just to visit him but she cant find him while she’s on her way to police station she notice that some one following her and find out that myung woo was driving a ranger car type and two of them decided to have a vacation, they went to myung woo country side and having fun each other. they went to hill and myung woo wideopen his arms and so did kyung jin. myung woo said  that if he dies he wanted to come back to the earth as the WIND. that night after while their sitted beside each other kyung jin ask myung woo if he knows the story about PINKIES and then she explains to him whats the story all about. "One day there was a beautiful princess looking for her prince by using their fingers. there was five great mens tries to win her heart the one prince point to him the 1st finger, the 2nd is the pointing finger, the 3rd is the middle finger (which she didnt like), 4th is the ring finger and the 5th is the pinky which she knot her pinky too and soon they get married. but there was a time that the prince need to go to the war and before leaving princess told him to come back soon and promise to her that he will be back alive and knot again their pinkies…10 years later but there was no sign of her husband which the kingdom tells her to remarry again so she decided to give the same test she gave to her prince but no one passed her test but there was a time that one beggar went to the kingdom and wanted to tryhe was hold by the guards but the princess tell them to let him in since all have the rights to take the test then she point her pinky same as the beggar and find out that the beggar was his husband. on that night while their sleeping together her husband woke up and jump off the castle and on that day she found out that its 49TH day of her husband died and found the body of his husband what she died is knot her pinky with her husband and lay beside him after she drink a poison which their live together forever"..After that story Myungwoo ask kyungjin if she would do the same as the princess did but kyung jin says he will never die. the day they drove went home but there was a heavy rain which had landslide on the road and a big rock hit their car and drop into the river myung woo was also died but kyng jin tried her best to swim out of the river while he was holding myung woo’s body..she was crying and almost lost her hope because myung woo is not breathing anymore, until myung woo breathe again and she pulls up to the road myung woo and luckily korean army bring them home.

from that day on their love to each other become more stronger and almost everyday their going out for a date. Myung woo thought kyungjin will stop chasing those bad guys but she kyung jin never stop. one night myung woo was waiting on the restaurant for kyung jin, she called her but jyung jin was to busy chasing the jail breaker in a music bar, myung woo heard the music and know the place and decided to follow her gf. while kyung jhin chasing the jail breaker, they went to a factory which she slowy trying to catch that guy and on the same time there was another police officer also chasing that guy without kyung jin knowing myung woo was outside of the factory, the jail breaker runs outside the factory and the kyung jin decided to hit the jailbreaker and so did the another police officer but unfortunately myung woo was the one hitted. but the truth is the other police officer was the one hit myungwoo, kyung jin run into the guy and found out that she hit her boyfriend and saying "I DIDNT SAVED YOU IN THE RIVER FOR NOTHING". they ran myung woo at the hospital but myungwoo was already dead. kyung jin found out that myung woo was dead she put her gun into her head but stop by her colleagues after that she did what the princess in the story did, she lay beside myung woo’s dead body and knot her pinky and drink a poison but she was saved by the doctors, she did everything to kill herself to be with myng woo, even jumping on the tallest building but was saved by the big balloons. and from that day she waited for myung woo’s 49th death day she became toughest police woman since she’s not afraid of death. she was able to transfer to a big police station and she have a new partner without knowing that her partner is the one who killed myung woo. one day there was a operation to chase the jail breaker the moment she saw that guy she remember myung woo’s dead but inthe end she was hit on the left chest by the jail breaker and her partner caught the guy and hit him on the head. 

 Kyung jin was bought to the hospital and her partner keep telling that kyung jin cant die on his side because he still need to do some confession. while kyung jin is comatose she dreamed of myung woo seeing him waling on the streets and tells to kyung jin thats his not myung woo that myung woo is dead. which make kyung jin wake up from being comatose. when she woke up she saw a paper plane and she follows it through her house and she remember the magazine and when she opened the paper plane she found out that paper plane was made by myung woo, so she did a paper wind mill (i dont know the exact name of it) and put it all over her house. on the next day she follow again the paper plane which directly to her house and she found out on the piano that there was a note and the black keys are colored into white and telling her to play a song which the wind blows around her and finally she saw myung woo and myung woo tells her that his about to leave buy kyung jin begging him not too but myung woo told her that its his time that kyung jin has a lot of time of her life that if she saw myung woo on the other life she will tell good and happy stories to myung woo. myungwoo promise to her that "he will always be by her side" and that one day she will meet the same spirit as myung woo have. on the next day kyung jin was called by the other police officer and gave her a book which have her named on it. when she opened the booked she saw the pictures of myung woo with his friend in childhood eating noodles which she’s on the back of it with her friends. and on the booked once again myung woo draws on the upper left page of it but this time have a color on it and it the end a couple named myungwoo and kyung jin. Kyung-jin rush out to find the finder, till in the train station, where she is saved by Cha Tae-Hyun (credited as The Guy) in the train station, Myung-woo whispered that The Guy is the one that with the soul like him. Kyung-jin whisper that "he is always beside her." THE END….

Connection to My Sassy Girl ,

Windstruck shares the same leading actress and director as an earlier popular South Korean film, My Sassy Girl. As a result, Windstruck contains several subtle references to the previous film. For example, a photo of Jun Ji-hyun from My Sassy Girl is visible on Kyung-jin’s piano (while playing the piano). Plus the final scene of Windstruck, in which Kyung-jin meets her new soul mate (played by Cha Tae-hyun, the male lead from My Sassy Girl) on a train platform, is similar to the beginning of My Sassy Girl and her character from My Sassy Girl is distraught over the death of her true love.

Also, when Kyung-jin is chasing Sin Chang-su she tells a random citizen to be as a steppingstone to climb over the wall just like she forced Tae-hyun in My Sassy Girl to act similarly.

So better watch for My Sassy Girl for the Second part of the Movie.. peace